Food is my device, my drug, my addiction.

So I am finally ready to admit that food is my device, my drug, my addiction. Its funny because I work with youth that suffer from alcohol and drug addictions and I see how much their addiction effects all aspects of their life. Mentally, Physically, Socially, Spiritually, Emotionally. I see these areas of my life being effected by my inability to commit to a healthy eating plan that does not consume my thoughts daily or even hourly.

I remember when I smoked and how time did not go by without thinking about when I would have my next cigarrette, when will I buy my next pack, where, do I have enough money, how can I make them last?

I know what to eat, I stay active and love to exercise, I have the resources, I have the information. So why is it so Fucking hard? My next step is to do some research on food addictions and see where I go from here?

I am ready to move on and not have food consume my hours, my days, my life anymore!!!!