Stress...Worry...Eating it all away...

There has been many changes in my life the last few months, including a seperation, a move, and a job change (same duties - different place). The speration is a good thing for me but has been a big adjustment with lots of ups and downs. Lots of questions about life. What do I want out of it? Who do I want in it? What do I want in it?

So where do I turn for comfort? You guessed it... good ole' faithful food. Enjoyment in every bite. All in the moment. Then it sucks cause I feel like crap at the end of the day.. full and bloated. I am sure everybody has experienced this. So I try to make healhty choices the next day and commit to this and that and the same thing, I hide my sorrows in food.

I have managed to stay under 150lbs so far which was a long term goal for me, but my weight doesn't matter when I feel like shit.

And to top it all off I am having breathing problems, like it is super hard to get a breath. It used to happen the odd time, maybe at night after a stressful day. Now it is all day everyday. Nothing helps. The doctor suspects Asthma, but has to rule out heart disease since my tests came back positive for hardening of the arteries. Since there is no history of heart disease in my family and I am generally pretty healthy, my doctor thinks its false, however, he has to follow through. I am waiting for appointments to get more tests. I think maybe I am eating this away and scared to exercise too hard. Maybe its just an excuse.

I am just looking forward to finding out what the problem is and moving on and getting back on track.