Rain Rain Go Away......

I am down 5.5 pounds. It was probably mostly water weight. Still feels good. The rain has been a downer on the exercise. Yes, I have a gym membership and a treadmill at home but I do love to mix it up with some outside time. We are close to setting a record of rainy days in a row, It is at 25, three more and we beat it from 1953. How depressing hey? Well I am off to bed. I'll post again soon.

Starting Pics and Stats

January 1, 2006
Stats

160 lbs
Chest:39.5 inches
Waist:33
Bicep:12.5
Thigh:24.5
Belly:37.5
Hip/Butt:41
Calf:14.75

My Progress

Day One - Great
Day Two - Even better, went to the gym spontaneously
Day three (Today) - Very tired, ate well all day, napped after work, ate chocolate and poppy cock, skipped Yoga.
I am just going to try to do the best I can over the holidays.

Look Who's Back...Back Again

Again it has been over two months since my last confession... I mean since I last posted. Things have been crazy. I had three funerals in three months. One a month. Too sad. And of course what do I do.. I eat. So I am pretty much back where I started. (The good thing is it took a year to put on what I took off in three months last year.)

It seems the motivation is what is lacking. Like I have said before, I have the skills and the resources to lead a healthy lifestyle, I just lack motivation.

I am going to try and focus on my clothes again and using blogging as motivation and accountability. It's worth a try.

Still at my sisters, which is challenging around cooking healthy meals for myself and having personal time for myself. But I guess managing this is a part of learning to lead a healthy lifestyle in any situation.

So here are some simple goals to start with:

My Goals:

-Limit Calorie intake to 2000 or less
* Use Fitday to track food

- Limit sugar and processed foods

- Start cooking meals and packing lunches everyday
* Shop for fresh foods and choose a variety
* Plan meals around household activities and people and write down
* Make a list of foods/meals that are healthy,
easy and worked for me
* Review last years food journal
* Use cook books and on line recipes

- Drink lots of water
* 1 bottle with breakfast
* 1 at snack
* 1 at lunch
* 1 at dinner

- Exercise 30+ everyday
* Use Fitday to track activities
* Make a schedule and put in organizer and on
white board
* Swim, Yoga, Weights, Jogging, Walking, Squash
* Look into Martial Arts

- Stay active throughout the day
* Plan activities with friends and family

-Blog weekly thoughts, achievements, setbacks, roadblocks, goals etc.

Stats:

158lbs

Tired, cranky, a little sad.

Ability to fit into wardobe: minimal usage

What is the issue here?

Its been about two months since I posted last. My eating habits are still out of whack. I eat well some days and other days I make unhealthy choices. I eat way too much crap.

Exercise is what saves me. I stay active and I am able to commit to an exercise program for most days.

I need to focus hard on my diet and emotional eating.

What am I scared of?

Last year at this time I was doing great, eating well, exercising. What was different?

Okay so maybe I was in my own place and now I am staying at my sisters and don't have my own space but this is why it is important to learn to deal with shit without turning to food.

I am in transition, but it doesn't mean I have to sabatoge my health. I think I am scared of being in control of this. If I am then what would I worry about? Is my life that lame I have nothing else. Not true, I have lots. Or is this a distraction from other things in my life, like meeting someone, school, work, financial issues, etc. What?

I need to get laid. It has been over 8 months. Maybe this is the real problem...

One Year and Counting

Monday to Friday I was on a work trip that we do every year with our students. We stay at a beautiful resort in BC... Manning Park. This year we did lots of swimming, walking, sports and I ate awesome. I continued from my 36 hour fast and ate pretty light the whole week. I enjoyed the scenery and the company ... instead of the food. yes I did have a few treats. What's camping without s'mores. But overall I made good choices everyday at every meal.

My shoulder is back to normal and today I was back at my weight routine. I feel great. I weighed myself this morning and I am back under 150.

I remember this time last year. It was exactly August 15 that I started really making plans to be a healthier me. I was at close to or around 160 and by January I had managed to stay at 145 for over two months. Since then I have been up and down due to lots of changes and lack of coping skills. Anyway it is coming up August 15 again and I think that I am ahead of the game. I am under 150 and if I can do what I did last year at this time I will be rockin' in January.

The key is to make healthy choices all the time. Everytime. Then when I get to have a treat it is so worth it and it's not all about the food. And life goes on...

Taking A Break from Food

Today I decided to go without food. Fasting I guess you would call it. It started with a good week of eating. Making good choices. A few treats here and there. But it just seemed that I was feeling sluggish and bloated and yuck. Friday night I had a few drinks and ... three dinners and of course I felt like crap after. So I decided to take a day or so off of food to empty out.

This has ended up being an awakening experience. I thought it would be hard but it was the opposite. I drank lots of water throughout the day. Wow. I had extra time in the morning before work when I didn't eat breakfast and didn't make a lunch. It was like a holiday from food. No planning. No cooking. No shopping.

This also made me realize that I buy way too much food and then I feel I have to eat it before it goes bad or I will be wasting money.

I looked up fasting on the web, got some info... need to do more reasearch. I think this is something I would like to continue to do, whether that be a day a month or a week a month or a day a week. I sure could use the extra time doing other stuff. And I could save money. And maybe explore my spirtual side since fasting can be a way to analyze and make changes in your life for the better.

On the fitness side of things, my shoulder is messing with me. I started my work out routine and struggled through exercises that worked my shoulder. I thought swimming would be gentle on it.. I was wrong, it was sore. But I pushed through and did my laps. I am a little pissed that I can't go all out in my weight routine and don't know how far I can go.

So whether or not I will continue with this fast tomorrow, I am not sure. I am hoping my shoulder gets better soon and tomorrow I will do some cardio, maybe some weights at the gym.